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Ryan Akagi ([personal profile] chickenchoicejudy) wrote2022-11-10 11:10 pm
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[There is a sick guitar riff on this answering machine message. Why.]

"🎵 Leave me a message after the tone! And I'll get back to you on my cellular phone!
I totally will! I totally will!
I'm not gonna forget I sweaaaaaaaarrrr--🎵
"

[Video/Audio/Text/Etc.]
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[personal profile] outofsynth 2022-12-07 11:46 pm (UTC)(link)
[Ryan, at this point, probably knows there are things Min hasn't been telling him. They've known each other too long for him not to. Min appreciates that he hasn't forced it, but he can only avoid the issue for so long. The sooner he rips the band-aid off the better it is for both of them.

He waits for a day where the snow seems to be a little lighter just in case this all goes wrong. He doesn't think Ryan will kick him out of their room, but he also has no real way to predict just what his reaction will be and the worst case scenarios keep trying to push their way in from the back of his mind. Min-Gi gives them the morning, probably being slightly nicer to Ryan than he needs to be despite Carly's advice against it. No matter what the outcome of his confession is, he wants to be able to remember them being happy.

Noon comes and goes, and as the afternoon creeps along Ryan can probably sense his growing nervousness. He doesn't seem able to focus on conversation, and he keeps opening his mouth as if to say something only to brush it off again.

It seems impossible to find a good way to breach the subject. In the end, the only starter he can think of is one he knows is likely to make Ryan worry. He tries to smile, but it's hollow.]


Hey, can we talk about something?
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[personal profile] outofsynth 2022-12-08 01:13 am (UTC)(link)
[Ry's been glued to Min's side most of the day, knowing what he's building himself up to. He seems a little surprised when Min-Gi finally does start to bring the topic up. His head jolts up, the Plusle giving him a little hug before he hops over to Min-un to try and lead him somewhere further away. The room they have isn't exactly large, but they can at least try and pretend to give them privacy. How about you show him that new game, Min-un? He is. Not subtle with his attempt at distraction at all, but Min appreciates the effort even if he is painfully aware that both Ryan and Min-un must know something's up.

Truthfully, he'd love to back out, but it feels too late for that now. He's already drawn attention to the fact that there's a problem, and even if neither of them have outright said it they've both known it.

Min-Gi keeps smiling that same empty smile, reaching to his belt to remove a ball that contains a Pokémon he's barely touched since he caught it.]


I have something for you.

[This is something else Carly told him not to do, but he was going to give it to Ryan at some point anyway. He'd been toying with the idea of releasing it before he'd shown up in New Bark, but that seemed irresponsible when all the other weird dinosaur Pokémon had disappeared completely now. Why not now before Min's revelation inevitably makes things weird between them?]
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[personal profile] outofsynth 2022-12-08 02:20 am (UTC)(link)
[Anyone could probably tell there's something not right with his smile right now. The rest of him is too tense, and he's leaning slightly back from Ryan. There's none of the ease he usually has when they're alone together. He's trying to be himself, but he's painfully aware of just how false he's coming off and that makes it even more obvious there's something wrong.

He looks expectantly at Ryan as he waits for him to open up the pokéball. He's caught completely off guard when he refrains from seeing what's inside. That was the one part of this scenario he thought he could accurately predict. He doesn't think he's ever seen him wait this long to open a gift once he has permission. There have been plenty of times when they were kids when he didn't even wait for that.

His face falls, realising that means Ryan must know what he has to tell him is bad. He bites his lip, letting out a shaky breath as he tries not to let his anxiety overtake him. He needs to do this.]


It's about something else...

[At this point he's struggling to look at him. There's no good outcome here in his mind. How can there be, when he's about to tell him he's a criminal? There are just varying levels of bad.]

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action; 25th March

[personal profile] outofsynth 2023-03-31 12:24 am (UTC)(link)
[Camping isn't so bad now that spring's started to arrive. It stays lighter for longer, and the campfire isn't quite as necessary for warmth as it was before. Not that it's stopped Min and Ryan sitting close. One of the perks of knowing each other for so long is that neither of them need to look for excuses to feel comfortable around each other. Touching's something that's never been weird for them, and while they're not as affectionate in public their makeshift campsite offers enough privacy Min isn't worried. In some ways it feels more private than it does when they book into a motel.

He feels free out here, with just the two of them. Away from civilisation and anyone else. Min-Gi's too reliant on modern conveniences to be happy like this for long, but tonight it feels good. Special. He's more distracted from the marshmallows than he usually is, which means they keep coming out darker than Ryan likes them even if he has managed to avoid outright burning them so far. After the third time this happens he sighs, holding out the stick with the slightly overdone marshmallow for Ryan to take. Work off previous experience, it seems safe to assume it's probably still in a better shape than the one he's made.

He needs to just bite the bullet. There's no way Ryan hasn't caught onto there being something distracting him, and if Min doesn't say anything now he'll talk himself out of it.]


Hey, Ryan? You remember I told you there was something I wasn't ready to talk about?

[Min doesn't sound nervous exactly. Disbelieving might be closer to it. Like he doesn't quite buy this is happening, even though he's the one bringing it up.]
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[personal profile] outofsynth 2023-03-31 01:54 am (UTC)(link)
[For one crazy moment Min thinks Ryan's straight up asking him, and his shoulders tense in anticipation of the next word. It's stupid to let himself get freaked out over the possibility of Ryan guessing something he's going to tell him anyway, but old habits die hard. "Are you gay?" is a question he's dreaded being asked since high school. Ever since he figured out the way he was looking at guys was definitely not the way his classmates were looking at guys, and those crushes on girls he'd been expecting to start cropping up any time now were probably not coming.

"Are you ready?" isn't much better. It gives him an out. An out part of him is already aching to take. He could tell him he isn't. He could pretend it wasn't that big of a deal after all. He could make up something else.

But then he'd be lying to Ryan. Then he'd have to go back to desperately trying to push down the thoughts he's never quite managed to get rid of no matter how hard he tries. He looks at Ryan sidelong, using the silence to bolster himself.]


What would you think if I... [It's two words. That's all he needs. Two words without overexplaining or dancing around it. It should be easy.] I'm...

[The false starts are frustrating. He knows Ryan won't react badly to this, so why is it so hard? Why is it so scary to say out loud to the one person he trusts more than anyone? Even more than his parents who can still never, ever find out.

He should just say it, he knows that, but in the end it turns out to be easier to take the indirect route.]


Have you ever noticed how I don't get girlfriends?
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[personal profile] outofsynth 2023-04-01 08:18 pm (UTC)(link)
Why couldn't I date anyone we went to high school with?

[That's not what he said, but there's something about it Min feels weirdly defensive over. Maybe because he's right. There's no way things would have worked out with anyone they'd gone to school with. He hadn't been interested in any of the girls, and outside of a few minor crushes that would have definitely got his ass kicked if they'd been found out he hadn't had much interest in any of the guys. With one major exception he is absolutely not planning on sharing now. Even this feels like too much.

He sits in a sullen silence, not so much reassured as frustrated. He's hidden himself so well not even the person he's closest to can see it. The only person he isn't fooling is himself, no matter how hard he's tried.]


I don't know. I just... I don't understand how it's so easy for some people. To be honest about what they want.

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[personal profile] outofsynth 2023-07-01 12:21 am (UTC)(link)
[When Min-Gi wakes up he knows he's not at home. Even before he opens his eyes there's an instinctive part of him that just knows this isn't his bed. The sheets feel strange, and the pillow feels wrong.

There's someone else there too. Tangled up in his arms. If they weren't so familiar he'd freak out then and there, but the scent is one he recognises instantly, and he knows the way he feels in his arms.

Cracking open one eye confirms it, and Min-Gi lets out an unsteady sigh of relief before he sits up just slightly so he can look around the strange room.

He doesn't have to look far to see something else that isn't right. There on the pillows are two strange rabbit like creatures, curled together just as tightly as Min-Gi and Ryan. He lets out a frightened yelp, pulling himself free from Ryan and scrambling to the end of the bed.

The creatures wake up instantly, jumping up and looking directly at him much to his alarm.]


Ryan!
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[personal profile] outofsynth 2023-07-02 12:53 am (UTC)(link)
No!

[Whatever they are, they definitely aren't rabbits. Min-Gi knows what a rabbit looks like, and that isn't it. Rabbits don't act like this either. Min doesn't understand what they are, but he knows they aren't like any regular animal they've ever seen.

When the weird animals are done whispering to each other the red one drops to all fours, tentatively taking a few steps nearer, ears perked. Min-Gi's grip tightens on on Ryan, shrinking back.]


Ryan... make them go away...

[His voice is a high whine, and close as they are Ryan can probably feel him trembling.

Strangely, the rabbit thing stops. It hops back to the blue one, both of them looking hurt by the reaction.]
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[personal profile] outofsynth 2023-07-02 04:04 pm (UTC)(link)
[Min-Gi still looks nervous of the two weird rabbits, but he's not as scared as he'd been at first. They're staying back, and small as the distance is it helps.]

How do they know what you said?

[He sounds suspicious, but he can't deny that it does seem like they understand.]

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[It's been a while since either of them had the opportunity to go ice skating, but with the investigation giving them an easy way to visit Blackthorn it's not something they're willing to pass up.

The outdoor rink is decorated for the season, and although it's only early evening it's already more than dark enough that the lights are on and adding to the festive atmosphere.

Min-Gi steps onto the ice once the gate is opened for them, pausing to make sure he remembers how to balance before he offers his hand out to Ryan to help him enter the rink. It's one of the few places he doesn't feel as though he has to think too much about it, and he wants to take advantage of the chance to prove to Ryan he can do it.]
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[personal profile] outofsynth 2023-12-20 09:40 pm (UTC)(link)
[It might be pushing it, but Min-Gi's increasingly aware of how many perfectly reasonable things are too much for him. He's lucky to have someone as patient as Ryan, and it isn't fair to expect him to be the one making all the compromises.

He does have a moment where he glances between the attendant and the couple behind them, but he doesn't try to take away his hand. The former is bored and disinterested, while the couple are so into each other they hardly seem to notice anyone else is even there. It's strangely reassuring to be of so little note. It makes it easy to look back at Ryan when he asks him if he's ready without worrying too much about what other people think. He nods, giving Ryan's hand a quick little squeeze, holding it so he can't swing for a moment.]


Mm-hm.

[He tugs gently at Ryan so the can skate over to the side. Out of the way of the entrance and more confident skaters. He can remember how to do this, but they're both rusty. They should spend a little time in the slow lane.

His movements are definitely stiffer than when they were younger. This had seemed easy once. Freeing, even, once they were old enough to go on their own. He laughs awkwardly as they reach the railings. He doesn't need it, but it's still nice to have it right there.]


We used to be so much better at this...
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[personal profile] outofsynth 2024-05-01 01:05 am (UTC)(link)
[Although they'd been told about the festival, Min doesn't think either of them expected it to be this big. They're briefly back in Mesagoza as it rolls around, just in time to get the hint that the Feast of Saint George will be bigger than they anticipated. The city is bustling as the book and flower vendors of the city prepare to take their wares to the streets the following day, and there are flyers plastered all over.

Although they probably should be preparing for their upcoming gym battle, neither one of them can resist the opportunity to experience it for themselves. It's nice to see everyone out and about enjoying the festival. It's mostly stalls of either books or roses, but there are a couple of food stalls in among them, and even performers. There's a reenactment of the story of Saint George, and buskers serenading their audiences with love songs. Even the buildings are decked out in roses. Min's never seen anything like it.

It's a fun day, and he enjoys spending it with Ryan, but he's very aware they're missing out on a big part of the tradition. As the afternoon goes on he suggests they meet back at the dorm, slipping away with a stilted excuse that doesn't make a lot of sense even to his own ears.

He wants to surprise Ryan though. And honestly? He's still not sure what he should get him. A book would be more traditional, but Ryan's never been as big a reader as Min has been. They'd discussed flowers after Valentine's and he know Ryan kind of likes the idea of being given them, but would he find it weird given the traditions here? They're supposedly more flexible than they used to be, but they haven't spent much time in Paldea and finds himself unsure.

Eventually, though, he makes his decision. His chest is tight as he arrives back at the dorm with his gift in hand, peering around the door so he doesn't ruin his surprise.]


Ryan?
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[personal profile] outofsynth 2024-05-05 01:29 am (UTC)(link)
Mm-hm.

[He nods tersely, body still partially obscured by the door.

Min-Gi's smile is too forced to be casual. He'd tried to gauge Ryan's reaction to some of the books they'd looked at, but even without seeing too much excitement at any of them he still isn't sure he made the right choice.

The one thing he is sure of is that Ryan knows what he's been up to. Why else would he be acting so jumpy? Part of him is tempted to just abort the idea then and there, but it's not like he has any way to hide the gift.

There really isn't much choice.]


I... have something for you.

[The situation feels eerily familiar, and neither time had been ideal. The first time he'd succeeded in giving Ryan a gift he'd liked, but they hadn't spoken in almost a year. The second time they'd been fine, but Ryan's never been comfortable with the Dracozolt he'd tried to give him.

His chest is tight as he finally nudges the door the rest of the way, kicking it shut behind him so he can hold the flowers out without risking anyone else seeing the moment. The dorms are convenient while they're in the city, but they're not great for privacy.]


Sorry if it's weird. [He knows he probably shouldn't put the disclaimer in, but his heart is in his throat and he's painfully aware of how clammy he is.] I told the seller it had to be okay for a guy, so...

[Which might explain how Ryan's ended up with such a wheat heavy bouquet compared with a lot of what had been on offer at the festival. There are still roses, though, and a tiny shiny Dragonite tag attached to one of the roses with a ribbon.]
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[personal profile] outofsynth 2024-05-06 10:25 pm (UTC)(link)
[Even though he's no longer hiding it, Ryan's gift goes unnoticed. Min's too stressed worrying about how is own gift is going to be received, then the relief when he reassures him he likes them. So when Ryan draws his attention to it, it's still a surprise.

He moves to the table to pick it up, the corners of his lips tugging up in a smile even before he unwraps it. By the time he's read the title he's practically beaming.]


I love it.

[Much like Ryan he closes the gap between them, being careful not to crush the flowers he's still holding close.]

Thank you. You're the best boyfriend.

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